Monday, 27 October 2008, 7:59 pm
loL~
this is realli so~~ dishearting.. .its always like tis...
ihateitin the end its still the same as the expecting way..
nothing has changed niliaojiema?LOL~
HAHAHA~~ ...
lol.....
ya... i am laughing now~
laughing smiling happily~
physically my lips is a curve now ...
FUCK IT.
一个人的开心方式 可以很简单~ =)
fakeme我没有风度
我只有态度
你说我太cool
我说你太毒
你说我放肆
我说你自私
我要你记住
你要我放弃
你把我抛弃
我怕你离去
你怕我留住
我把我子息
你把我忘记
chinese rap !! Look how rymth it is~ trying reading it in a fast way~ and ur noe it
book in lor~ weeE~ lol ...
xiaode sign off @ 8:45 PM
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hmmmm
lol
yestaday so funni.. after being a filial child in the morning..
i was alone playing arcade... watching movie.. shopping one .. ya..all alone.
then came hme in the evening saw ah ben on9 chatted with him..
he wanna go town watch movie.. lol .. but i doing quizzes and shit...
then ya..
but after i finished my stuff...
i walk down to Jurong point to have dinner... then went to GV walk walk...
saw got the movie *REC ... if not wrong.. ya its spanish version of quaratine ..
lol ya.. i love such show.. then recalled ah ben at hme
so call him out to watch ..
the movie not bad ba.. i like it alot... lol .. :)
luckily gt ah ben ... if nt actualli veri sucky feeling to watch a movie nice and u like one but after the movie u cant talk to anyone abt the move..cant complain or share ... lol
but what to do?
anyway
then omg -.- after movie i take out my hp then saw 3 missed call from swee cheng..
ya...
lol..
yup.
actualli wanna go dw find her one.. but she came dw jurong point...
then the 3 of us sat and talk ... till 5+ in the morning..
every single person out there got their own problem...
but nvm ba... its life.. jiayou.
problem don exist foreva.. everything will come to an end eventually...
or actualli not everything ba.. something r so weird that its can nv b gone.... craps
anyway then went dw to pioneer mall to have breakfast in mac... then home le ..
the cow say "why do i exist....why cant be like others..why do i have to be alone out here now.."

"why do i have wings..but i cant fly... why do i have to stuck inside the plastic bag.. since i am made of plastic... " if the cow can fly....can he realli fly to the place he wanna...

ya...eventually the cow is jut a product of golden village... exist for a purpose..the purpose might be stupid which looks like no purpose..

"good bye folks."
actually it is kind of funny when i can be always out there ready for anyone who need me.. but whos out there for me.... i noe there are ppl... but some are just not there...
Sunday, 26 October 2008, 11:46 am
feel the rage of my seRenity~
what am i talking
my new blog song
its call
"song of storm and fire"
water and fire can never merge
but storm and fire can co-exist at the same time ... and it chaos
its messy
its hell
but its fiercy sweet together...
i like storm..... do u like fire?
xiaode sign off @ 11:48 AM
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yestaday friday..
after i book out straight went to meet bunny
and we have our dinner at Crystal jade Xiao long bao!
bumped in to yushan jia xin and jolly! lol... months or years nv saw them le i think ? ya... yup..
then
today saturaday
ya
went out meet Grace and shi jun walk walk shop shop eat eat talk talk
then home le quite early ba.....
=)
enjoyed
but
i wan mor e..
i wanna...
ya...
wonder if u noe.
xiaode sign off @ 1:02am
Wednesday, 22 October 2008, 7:13 pm
pErforming Stun at the cosT of $$ again~ xiaoDE can fly~ -.-
hais...
izzt worth~? i dunoe .
but
all i noe ur happi jiu hao le .
=)
Sunday, 19 October 2008, 6:53 pm
how i wish i can dont go camp also eh! -. - sigh .
:)
:-)
:D
:=)
: o
starting to hate sunday . .
cos waking up early with no motive no plan nothing
only lead me to go destruction SELF DESTRUCTION ... -.-
ya u can say i shld wake up and think OMG! today is a day i can go back to camp!
i can hide inside!
damn it -.- its so not motiving at all.
anyway
it rains today!
but so small..
hais .
anyway i dun wish it to be a habit ...coz i dun like it or enjoy it much but do i hav a choice ?
yes i have.... i know i can have i know i can alot of others option but i wanna a better choice ...
stubborn? wanna yr attention ? wanna u to find out ?
eh i not refering to u ...
yes.. i am refering to "u" yes... "U"!
"u" wont know it...
hey u.... u knew it righT? u knew i lied to u right... ya i purposly make it so obvious ... u expose me b4 u hang my phone
but "u" there "u" dont know ...."u" dont care
randomly.....
gone b4 "u" noticed .
make this week a fast week.
UUUuU~ huu~~~
xaOde sign off @ 8:02 Pm
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ya.. due to the dream =x i woke up veri early.. cant slp..
so meet swee cheng earlier go out shopping
shop And shoP~ bugis haji...big sun.. sweat and sneeze -.-
randomly brought a shade and she brought a bag
Pastamania - ed 2 time -.-
once at Bugis Eating and another time at cineleisure
then at night
went dw to town meet shijun
sj wanna chill out at cineleisure so went there
then she suddenly wan watch movie
3 of us went to watch Love Exposure korean movie choosen by KSJ
lol salty pop corn with cheese~ though we say will fat till die! =x but its emptied after the show!
a korean "sex and city" but abit diff haha ....
i tink if watch with others i will fall aslp jor =P
xaOde sign off @ 2:40 am
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Saturday, 18 October 2008, 8:46 am
what do u called a dream that u cant determine if it is a nightmare ? but its not a enjoyable dream and that dream forced u to wake up -.- ...
which is the reason i woke up so early today.. dOtS
and i am not feeling a single bit of tiredness at all.
xiaode sign off @ 8:49am
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i Maintained the smiLe bcoz i wanna everyone to be happy
and i hope so.
so what if u noe that i dun wanna smile ? but i still smiled bcoz i feel happi for others but i dont feel happy for myself so the reason for smiling is for others.
thats the way to prevent the smile from scattering ...
i am still kinda of sick now
sick of things thats happening
wanna say simple things like "fuck off" and get out of my world but i cant bcoz i cant bear.
and ya i am no in the mood of too much joke ...
dun make me feel disgusted ...
coz i alreadi felt so.
and its realli sickening
i am as fake as how real u tink i am.
Friday, 17 October 2008, 10:18 pm
happy Belated Birthday Grace =p
21 le
=)
smile eh
ya today after book out went dw to cineleisure kbox to celebrate grace's bday =) hope she enjoyed eh yup!
Shen ri kuai le HOPe you like thE pREsent ! the BOOk I NOE LAME LA! but haha but its funni =)
yup.. i didnt bring camera along so ya...dun hav photo... nxt time ba and i dunoe also when can upload photo
nvm nOthing much le
haha after the movie some left and some went to e2max to watch movie!
lol
we watched its a boy girl thing =/ squeeze inside a room and rot and watch till 2+ i think then all cab home jor~
hehe
weeee~ what a day! ahha
kbox.z zz alright lorz although i realli like to kbox and those who noes shld noes
Wednesday, 15 October 2008, 7:59 pm
心很痛。。。真得很痛。。。我以为我放下了。。。
aT thaT split second when u told me yr Bf.
althought i know u have one... but its just like u reminded me that u r someone with a bf.
why do i feel the pain this time round ...
i dont know but it realli hurts.
Sunday, 12 October 2008, 7:33 pm
and i just Cant pull myseLF away~
undeR A SPell i cant Break~
i just canT stOP~ ~~~`~~
Come closer.
come closercome closer....-.-
though this blog name is letting go
but this blog song is "closer".
ooPs..sry i did it again its nt that hard to mold it ... but its hard to maintain it unscathed but still theres a way
yup.. so its nt that hard ..
booking in Again le . .
think this week wont so fast pass ba ... going to be a long week ahead
*sigh.. sorry bunny... i didnt mean to forget it -.- ...so ya..next time ba... =)
Saturday, 11 October 2008, 2:17 am
haha
oh ya!

today i opened jiamin's present!
actualli she met me last friday and passed to me le but i didnt open till now
=)
its a wallet!

thx jiamin!! =)
jiayou okie!! wait u finish studying le ur be free~
sIANs...
today went out meet melvin walk walk shop shop
then ...shijun came meet us then ya evon jiayi and aus came eventually
anyway i am not being stupidz .. is i dont like it.
another night which i so dont wish to go home so early .
SIANS
i AM SO SICK~sick of this world. ROAR~ i feel like typing stupid stuff now~
she Wield the sWord to defend herself~ she been hurt by thaT SamE SWorD b4 But its was wield by otherS .. but~ noW she hold that sword that hurted her b4 to hurt others~ she knew the Pain but she hate the pain to be inflined on her~
SlAsh~ X.x ARGGHH~~ the whole villaGE FEAR HER~! but neED her alSO ..cos shes the BESt wARRio
but at times... when shes sad the whole village ignore her ... and dont know her saddness...
putting dw the sword aside...
shes just another simple girl who wish to be hugged....
CRAPS~ ROAR~ rots
Friday, 10 October 2008, 11:53 pm
BOOk out LOR!
haha
ya today book out le book out le!
todays plan is meeting vanessa and ah long!

haha i styled my hair! its standing look nice ma?
and they say wanna meet at cineleisure hong kong cafe! lol
hong kong cafe! that place is omg theres once i meet grace and jiayi there to eat and in the end they brought me to celebrate my bday lol.. tats 2 years ago le..
anyway~
yup! i cab hme and cab dw to look for this 2 dear friends
lol then actualli they ate b4 i came!
=/
so ya i order my food and they order their desert !

eel congee , taste better then i expected! its nice its nice!

haha their mango ice! nessa luv it

lol for all outings they will took a photo of the same posture man wonder if they notice it b4 haha
anyway~ both of them so nice! brought present for me! omg!
its a checker retro cap! and neckace with wingS! i love wings~~

haha i luv the cap also! this cap is like i like but dun dare to buy la and they brought for me~ haha retro style! so nice ! i got a retro pants as present also haha now i need buy one shirt onli =x

so cool right? =/

lol i look nice onli =x nessa is blurred ah long is cutted =/
haha aiyoo van ah van! cheer up okie! =) theres others better guys out there and ur hot! no worries
we went walk walk shop shop and after that went to the preview lounge to... chit chat and cam whore =/

haha we trying to take formal photo~! but like fail eh -.- all ah long fault

haha 3 heads!



one last photo b4 we departs .yup
both of them r stil lstudent =x need to go home early one althought i really kinda of dun wish to go home yet cos its friday night -.- '
but still haha we headed home =/
actualli i gt wanna find ppl come dw town to meet me for movie or what de leh.. but hais.. couldnt tink of anyone.
anyway~ THX AH LONG AND VANESSA!! LUV u guyS! muacks! haha
Wednesday, 8 October 2008, 1:10 am
*late entry..
happy bday to me
happy bday to me~
happy bday to XIAO dE~
haPpY~ bday~ to~~~~ me!!!
:)
"shen ri kuai le"
ya...
when the clock strikes at 12AM
AH vick most funny la! 7th OCt 2008 she sms me say "happy BElated bday"! lOL =x but thx!! =)
few other person to thx! i put according to who i received first according to sms eh ? no meaning ar.. jus having fun onli :S
Caiyu
eVon
Grace
sushi
shijun
kexin
jolly
ah long
jiayi
melvin
jun xian
and jiamin!
lol jiamin so cute la! she say...
"i cant be the first, den hope i am the last to wish you happy birthday"
LOl .. ya.. on 8oct shes definitly the last to wish me happy bday.. rest of the ppl will hav to add "Belated" le...
actualli hor today although i still in camp...
but ar i got nights out :S which mean i at night can go out but hav to come back at night also :S
so ya... i went out to meet ... Evon... yuP =x eh..
have some tAlk... lol but time like so not enff.. anyway i also dunoe weather what i said is right or not... but at least i said le ba.. :S sometime its better to be abit brave to say everything out rather then hiding everything eh ? dunoe leh...
hope is for the better ba if nt also ...hais
haha anyway~ i also dunoe la...leave it to fate ba .
=x
and so funny lA! b4 i went to take a cab to go back camp =x
we went to breadtalk to buy a cake and blow candle somewhere near the taxi stand haha! so fun la... wait i got the photos then i upload
then ya
i consume the cake when everyone is asleep.... :)
yup~
Sunday, 5 October 2008, 3:34 am
new blog skin ... ya solve alot of problem regarding my blog le ... nothing to do ba.
TESTING
*laTE entry*!!
tOday byright meeting jeanette at town for lunch one
i seriously tot is only meeting her for a simple lunch
end up she bring to this korean restaurant at far east there
then my class was there preparing to celebrate my bday :)
kimwei,melvin,chinwei,jiayi,evon,yingjia,grace was sitting inside there when we go in lol
i first saw jiayi head and the nxt moment they were singing bday song le, then dunoe is a too stun or what i totally cant hear anything but just blur blur go there and sit dw and blow candle.. lol

pardon me man... i admit i realli surprised thats why so stun'ed face
actually took quite a number of photo de but many camera ar... so ya wait i gt those nicer photo from others camera then i upload ba....

the ladies =)
shes jeanette ...lol i heard that is evon laise with her to bring me here lol... thx
the guys but kim was missing he was there also one =)
oh ya i received 3 present from there =)
firstly theres a 3/4 pants but the photo nt inside my camera so ya that pants is quite cool one
and a book by jimmy spa my favo =)
and also a digital photo frame which is what i really want but nv intend to buy so fast and they brought for me le , thx guys :)
ya
after eating we all yup... need to go de go back first
then ya... me jiayi evon and melvin went to catch a movie "painted skin"
after that i took cab hme and prepare to book in le ...

just a blurred photo which is quite nice coz blurred
thx guys for the clebration... i really hope that we can be as happy as polytimes...its kinda of sad sometime... its kinda of going through the motion.. but.. still anyway if ur reading this =) hi! ya ... i not complaining anything.. just blogging my freelings... really coz hais.. tat day not that i dont enjoyed myself, but i was really happi deep inside but i was also sad and dishearted ....please dont misunderstanding okie coz i luv u guys..its veri warm hearting to see everyone....
Wednesday, 1 October 2008, 7:17 pm
be it .
dancing in the rain
crying in the rain
dont forget to smile to the sun.
anyone read jimmy spa latest release "躲进世界的角落" ??
i bet no ba cos no one around me know who is jimmy spa ...
i read it today at somewhere.
。。。
每个人都有躲进世界的角落的办法。。。
有的人看书。。
有的人发呆
有的人只要和莫个人在一起就如躲进世界的角落
有的人就合我一样。。。
只要一个人在电影院就如躲进世界的角落
但我在世界的角落时。。。
i dont have to care about anyone
i dont have to think about anything
its a kind of silence that i love and hate
but eventually the show will end and i have to walk out.
and face the reality an its cruel.
it take two hand to clap.
ya
i begining to understand it more and more .. and more... and more
wanna say alot thing.
wanna do something
dont wanna say anything
dont wanna do anything
its the same in the end
everyone is having hard time ..
i am not having any good time ...
broke my spec in camp. and it realli sucks.. alreadi veri sian still so unlucky
but some seems to having a good time ... so jealous
wanna be alone ...
in
the
rain
now